The importance of your diary in life


I felt kinda down lately. Maybe because of heavy workloads from these past 2 weeks.

Dis evening, after arrived at grandma house, I went upstairs at my room, and looking for my diaries inside old boxes. I feel like I want to search motivation and inspiration coz I don't want to keep on feeling so down like dis.

And I started read my diaries since my secondary schools. I spent lot of hours read back all my stories from 8 years ago until now. I feel way better now and really have great inspiration to work hard for tomorrow.

Since I was a kid, I always kept on writing diary. I had 1-3 diaries for every year. Why I have more than 1 diary per year? Because, in my early age, to be so discipline to write down every single things dat happened in life is kinda troublesome and sometimes along da way, I getting bored and stop writing it. But, when I got mood again to write, I started bought new diary because I think wanted to start fresh. Normally, my diaries will start with happy happy stories, and then every single work and things dat happened in life...then in the end, I put too much emotional in my diaries and I dun like it anymore, that time I will stop writing it. After 1-2 months, I will start new diary again...so dat stories goes on until now. Haha. But I will definitely will not stop writing a diary because diary can be my own motivation and inspiration book later in the future.

And its happened today. And its happened everytime I feel so down from da past 8 years. I believe dat, whatever I did in da past - whether good things or bad things surely will reflect da way I am now today so I always keep in mind never do anything dat will make my future suffer where I cant never start anything fresh when I want to. I believe, my past will always help my current life for a better future. (I think I mentioned about this many times in my blog >_<)

Just like blogging, I had quite a lot blogs from 2001 until now. I think my blogs in Internet network are more than 10 blogs. (rasa macam penah cerita pasal ni kt sni..>_> anggaplah ku tak penah cita lagi kalau korang pna baca) I keep on writing in it and just like my diaries, when I getting bored with it, I will make a new one and private da old ones. Ask my friend, Ama - she also witnessed my hard life during my stay in UMS at 2006. We created one blog together to share our sad and happy life together. Maybe dat time was our bad times, she wrote a lot of her hard stories and I also wrote about many sad things in my life. After I transferred to UPM, I still continue to write in dat secret blog ..same like Ama. And one day, we decided to let dat blog to be our history in past because we want to start a new positive life again. And from there, I keep on writing on my diaries until last year, where I decided to write a blog again. And dis time, I strict myself to put only happy and good memorial stories in my blog so dat I would appreciate my life more when I read back all my posts in here. All of bad things happened I will just cried for it as many as I can and forget about it and let it go.

Alhamdulillah, dis blog can last more than 1 years and I hope to continue it another many years later. Insya Allah.

But, at dis point, as I just read my old diaries back, I think, whenever my past stories was good or bad stories, both stories gave big impact in myself and those experience really reflect da way I am now. I remember back all my hardwork during my PMR and SPM time when I read back my old diaries. I feel motivated and have courage to overcome my problem in university life and be successful just like what I did in my secondary life. And I think, I should write back all those good and sad stories together in my diary back.

My friends and everyone dat read dis post,
I really encouraged you guys to write your life whether good or bad in diary starting from today. If you already did it, well done and keep on doing it. Someday, you will feel grateful when u read back your past stories and it will motivate you in ur current life. Please do not write about how bad you think about any person surround you and how bad people treated you because when you read it back again you will feel da anger and sad feeling again. Dat feeling is not positive feeling for you. I had dis kind of diary when I was in Form 1 and 2 - I keep on writing anything dat I hate and anyone dat treated me badly - I throw all my hatred in writing and trust me..I am so stressed wrote it all and when read it back. Seriously so much tension and pressure! I throw dat diary in dustbin and never think about it anymore. Please pretend to forget about what bad stuffs dat people done to you..because forgive and forget is da best way to continue a happy life in dis world (I still learning dis method >_< ITS HARD. But dats da best way I believe). For sad stories, normally I wrote about how unlucky I am in anything dat happened dat day or work hard or how much pain dat I received from something dat I work hard to gain. Dat sort of stories will make me remember back how hard it is to get something dat I want in life.

Sorry for long post. I just want to give courage to me and also everyone to motivate self in life. May Allah bless me and you guys. Insya Allah.

Ganbatte!

=)

PS : I will start writing back in my blog =) Amin.